Wednesday, April 20, 2011
10:30 PM
came to blog. recently dont feel so well. due to i'm almost sick! Okay officially sick. Went to airport to send helen unnie, her hubby, pearlidia unnie and limin off to bangkok! Shuting was there too~ we went to eat but the both of us couldnt ate much due to both of us are sick. So ate some cos unnies are there. My face was damn pale, according to limin and pearlidia unnie. well yes it was as i could scare some one off with my face. Shuting gave me a bag of chocolates but she forbids me from eating till i'm well! hahah! Had funny check in and funny sending off. Because helen unnie say why never take out camera, i was like HAHAHA. She wanted to be idol! so we was acting, pretend we have camera~ After sending off, i was talking to shuting about my problems recently. Well, she told me hers to. YA i did feel like smacking her cos she told me something! And i told her something too. which make us talk till 4.20pm~ told her lots of things. well. probably it will turn better~ hehehehe.
i just simply love everyone alright?
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
10:23 PM
came to blog, because i realised i have no place to say anything out already. No more places. recently what i felt is totally my own fault. i'm keeping away all those things and i wont be like this anymore. this might be the last time i will be like this. although i know why, feel weird? I'm sorry for being like this. i just know that the distance is getting further and further. sighs.
miahne. i cant be the one that will be a spoiler to everyone. i will fade off silently. so that you all wont feel weird anymore. It's alright. i probably have enough memories. Because i might be fated not to have all these forever. i will try to make up everything and fade off. okay?
recently, i dont feel really good. totally not good at all. i failed as a person, failed to take note of other ppl emotions, failed to take note of how they feel, didnt know they are in a position that they will feel weird and the distance is getting further and further. i'm sorry.
Labels: fading off.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
9:39 PM
I felt somehow really weird. Maybe its due to me. Or am i thinking too much? Probably. I just felt we are not used to be what we are last time, or is it because i'm the one? I dont think everyone likes me. Am i? Truthfully speaking am i that kind of person that everyone dislikes. Probably i should fade off barh. Because i never ever had friends that will tahan me. Only 1, charmaine Lim. Ah jie i miss you. I dont know what's wrong with me, i cant seems to make friends that will last longer then them. The them you know who. I feel that my friendship with the girls i know might not be lasting. Is it because of me? Am i just thinking too much? Oh gosh i sound so irritating. I seriously failed as a person. Failed to be a human. Failed. Seriously failed. But what should i do, i guess i should fade off slowly. So that no one will knows about my existences and not being there anymore. fading off seems to be a good choice. Becoming anti-social is not the first time.. Bottling up everything is suffocating me up. Although i appeared to be mature, i guess my thinking is all screwed up. Okay its totally screwed up! I'm not a good friend, not a good unnie, not a good sister. Whatever i do is screwing things up. Haiis. Fading off slowly without making any sound. I'm going to be silent and fade off silently barh.
Labels: fading off~
Sunday, April 03, 2011
2:15 AM
its so sudden that i felt so negatives. well. i'm not sure why either. Its been so long i ever post. I'm afraid of losing friends ever since last time. i dont know why sometimes i felt i'm neglected which i dont want to have this thinking. Maybe its myself, probably i think too much. Maybe i think too much, if i ever neglect or say something that i really dont mean. Please please forgive me. I think we all have drifted apart, i wanna be close to all of you but one small group is enough to me and i really wish we can be this close and maintain this close.... Can we? As i know my mood for this few days is really crazy, i can be happy, high, sad, emo and angry. But what i felt is that i think i know you all for years instead of like months months. I wish we can continue ya?! <3<3<3<3<3 Loves you all so much!~ very soon i have to stop my fangirling activities, which means around august or sep~ where i only left with 4-5 months. Or maybe minimise the fangirling. Minimise will do. Mugging for my last year and graduate successfully.
