Tuesday, January 18, 2011
7:24 PM
school was fine till after school i started to think lots of stuffs. I realise that my source of money was gone. which is mum's bf. After the fight 2 days ago, i think they broke off. No more allowances from him and i never get money from dad. And mum never gave me allowances anymore. Well, because of these i had to spend my savings which is only $150 to pay for consession today. Left over money suppose to be save and now, i have to use it as my own allowances.
I dont think i can survive. And i'm troubling over my school fees for year 3. my final year. What should i do? If mum got a new bf i dont mind, but will he be good? I wonder. And now, many things just come very sudden and i dont know how to handle and what should i do? I think and think and think. No money is one thing, and i even thought of quitting school just to work. But i'm only left iwth one more year to go. So what can i do? I'm seriously making myself worse.
I can only cry and cry and cry. What should i do? CNY is around the corner and we should be happy and preparing for it. But what's wrong? I'm not happy at all and not even preparing at all. I think till my head really pain. My tears are just dropping and i cant control it. Haiis. What to do? Cry is only i can do. How i wish i was dead then at the point i was on the bus just now on the way home. Haiis.
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